Quick update. No response from Kevin. It has been a week since my goodbye note and three weeks since his last texts (initiated by me). He either chickened out by my goodbye or simply didn’t read it yet. Bob thinks it is the latter. Anyways, as each day passes by I feel more and more like just a ‘fuck toy’ to Kevin. A not so interesting toy when injured. So be it. I finally snapped out of this dreamworld I created. Now my heart just needs to heal.
At least I didn’t ghost Kevin. I said my goodbye.
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Yup, it’s pretty obvious that Kevin has lost interest in you as a serious friend (if not lover) otherwise he would have at least been checking regularly for your emails, contrary to what Bob may think. Time to accept reality, move on, close this chapter in your life and look to open new ones. You’ll be much happier that way, trust me. You’ll be ok.
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Thanks Rob! And yup, got to move on. Two times forgiving him is enough.
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Yes I hate to say it but that is a lousy move on his part. Even if he hadn’t read your email, he is not checking in and neither of those options are good enough. A low blow and I am disappointed and hurt for you. Onwards and upwards.
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Lousy indeed. Now I know what I am not looking for. Lessons learned and chapter Kevin closed! Thanks for sharing my pain Eve.
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It’s funny how we can mean so much in the moment but afterwards sometimes it all changes. Take for example, the fact that I no longer care for my ex-married lover. Once I met my new (hopefully forever) man, I lost all interest in the married older guy and although my feelings had been declining as I became more and more annoyed at his diminishing contact and lack of accountability or reliability, it is still a surprise to me that I no longer care for him at all. My feelings are now wholly focused on my love, and for the first time in 5 years, I am monogamous again. It’s a funny old world.
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The annoyance is so recognizable. I think within time most of my feelings for Kevin will be gone too, especially since he didn’t show any sign of response. Makes me question if all of it was a lie all along. I am so happy for you that you found a new love!
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