Seriously… I find it hard to keep up with my diary. I have so many other priorities in my life right now. Fun and good priorities! I am fit as a fiddle and enjoy life to the max. I wish I could give you detailed chapters about my secret dates, but writing takes a lot of time. I am not a natural writer and I have 100+ revisions on a single chapter before I post it. OK, enough of that. Fact is that I don’t prioritize writing. I do have scribbles of all my dates… All sixty dates with Charley. Even if I would take a sabbatical, I would fail to write all chapters. So, here is the short version.
Next week I am dating Charley a half year. I see him two or three times a week. Charley and Bob are friends now and even spend time without me. The sex is great, magical! I get soaking wet of his kisses… His touch… Within seconds I am ready to have him inside me. Charley’s cock is a perfect fit for me. He makes love to me for hours (yes, he can fuck me in one position for an hour) and every second… Every thrust feels like he is hitting me with a wave of butterflies. I expected a dominant man at the start of this adventure, but he is mostly adorable, funny and romantic. I especially go insane when Charley during sex, turns my head with his strong hand towards my puppy dog and forces me to tell little Bobby how good his cock feels inside me. My doggy loves it and cums multiple times. Bob is always present, except when Charley visits for a morning quickie before work. But I will make sure to tell about the date or take pictures of Charley’s cum dumped on my body for Bob. Charley’s girlfriend benefits from the situation too, because she loves being alone in the evening during the week. She doesn’t want to know all the details of the dates, so Charley needs to keep his mouth shut until she asks for it. I am curious about ‘the girlfriend’, but I don’t think it is wise that we meet. Maybe I get jealous? I do wonder if she is curious about us (Bob and me). Most of all I am thankful that she shares Charley with me/us. She thinks Charley is a lucky man for having two girlfriends.
Kevin did a lousy try to ‘quick fix’ our affair after two months, is he dense or what? Come on, two months… He kept me in the dark for two months! I do cherish the special time we had, but our ‘relationship’ was unhealthy to start with. My unconscious is still progressing Kevin, since I had an emotional moment and cried when I drove by one of our meeting points. Bob isn’t mad about it and says he doesn’t want me any other way. In fact, Bob is happy that I care so much and don’t give myself to a random guy.
I received a message on Valentine’s Day (four months after the lousy try) from Kevin. “Big hug for you,” was his text. I didn’t respond. What is there to respond? To be honest I found it a bit cruel and selfish that he messed me up again. Maybe it was his last hope to connect with me. Too bad. I deserve better communication than a text without a clear message.
I am trying not to talk to Eric anymore. Not that I don’t want to. I log in on Skype from time to time, to check if he is still there. Many times, I typed something and then erased it. The last thing we said to each other is a wish for a good new year. I think he deserves a fresh start. In my opinion, it is selfish to ask for his attention. I do miss him, and I miss being submissive on that level. But to be realistic… It is not fruitful anymore. Eric was right to say goodbye to me. Also… Bob doesn’t want me in that submissive state anymore and he is the most important to me. I also need to be true to myself, because sex wise I long for love making the most. I learned a lot from Eric and I loved every bit of our wonderful adventure together. I am forever thankful and don’t regret meeting him.
So, my focus on men is fully on Bob and Charley. They both love me unconditionally and I hope that their friendship lasts. Our love triangle/poly romance is amazing.
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