NRE (new relationship energy) or maybe a sex addiction? An addiction for sure. I see Charley regularly, but I miss him so much every time he leaves. We keep on waving to each other until he is around the corner. Me, peeping half naked behind an almost closed door and Charley with a smile so… Continue reading Crazy emotions messing me up, NRE?
I have good news. I am recovered from my injury. Which is such a liberation. I feel like I can take on the world again. No limitations anymore. After a nice workout in the evening, I hop online to chat with Eric. He has been asking when I would be home a few times today.… Continue reading Chapter 65: I know he would never hurt me on purpose
It is hard for me to write the next chapter, my morning session with Eric. I tried many times to write it, but stop after a few minutes. I will give you a little heads up of what is coming, because a lot has happened in a month. Eric and I had a wonderful session… Continue reading Random thoughts: It was my last session with Eric…
Quick update. No response from Kevin. It has been a week since my goodbye note and three weeks since his last texts (initiated by me). He either chickened out by my goodbye or simply didn't read it yet. Bob thinks it is the latter. Anyways, as each day passes by I feel more and more… Continue reading Random thoughts: Quick update
Bob lays next to me on the bed and reads my goodbye note to Kevin. He approves and asks me to send it right away. He doesn't understand why I have an imaginary deadline. "Then you are done with it," Bob advises me. "OK, you are right. I am afraid though." "I have one question...… Continue reading Chapter 59: When will he notice? Is he going to accept my goodbye?
Do I seriously need to confront Kevin again? There is no interest in me at all. No, 'how is your injury?' Nothing... All I ask is some communication from time to time. Even if it means telling me that he doesn't have time. Fuck, I hate this. The only thing I get is a quick… Continue reading Chapter 58: Endless tears are running down my face now
I am doing a little test. I ask Kevin for a picture, because I want to see his handsome face. The last time I got a picture was from last summer. I gather all my courage and ask him. "Can I have a picture of you? Miss your handsome face." That was Saturday. No response.… Continue reading Chapter 53: It is like floating in darkness for me and I am reaching my limit