Kevin is not really interacting with me. I talk to Bob about it, but he is leaving the decision up to me on how to continue my adventure with Kevin. I need to give Kevin some space to recover. It would be very selfish to stop the thing we have going on, because he is… Continue reading Chapter 52: Kevin… I am crying now
I read on a forum that you have to be assertive as a hotwife to get what you want, which is a challenge for me. But it does give me results when it comes to Kevin. A few minutes ago, I asked Kevin bluntly if we should meet in a hotel tomorrow evening. He got… Continue reading Chapter 45: I miss penetration. I need it.
Eric loves the video of my second assignment. He is impressed, but also concerned that I choked myself. I was not assigned to do that and he enlightens me about choking. His concern for me makes me warm inside and I realize more and more that this world of BDSM is a very loving one.… Continue reading Chapter 27: I wish Kevin was here, so he could hug me and wipe away my tears
I am done with texting Kevin. Girls want attention, that's the truth. I also want attention from Kevin, but I don't get it that often and I am not asking for it. I usually text him if I don't receive a text from him for a few days, but this week I won't. My last… Continue reading Chapter 24: I am done with texting…
I had serious doubts about posting this, but in the end they are my pure raw feelings I had at that moment (this was January). Skip it if you don't like whining.
Just a normal Sunday. I am in the mood to have ‘sexy-time’ with Bob. I take a shower to warm myself up. The lights in the bathroom are dimmed and a love song plays in the background. Suddenly, I don’t know why, depressing thoughts kick in. I feel sad. I am having doubts about everything.… Continue reading Chapter 16: It feels like a thousand knives are stabbing my heart
Kevin is shocked about my goodbye message. "Let's talk about it, don't leave me like this. If you still want to quit after, then you quit, but not like this..." Kevin says. I am not responding anymore and give my phone to Bob to read everything. I walk away to the bathroom to freshen up… Continue reading Chapter 12: Kevin is shocked about my goodbye message